shifting on Christmas

I know Christmas is still far away but..for those who have been waiting to visit my place, it's only open after Christmas..

Sigh. i wanted to move in early too but with some unforeseen reasons, i think it better to move only around Christmas..And anyway, I don't know if i can make it alone without hubby in SG and without mum's cooking and pampering.

Also, moving in around that time, will be near to CNY and I don't have to clean up the hse as the hse will be just renovated and furnitures are all sparkling clean. ;) only lazy pple like me can think of these.

Anyway..Hongkong this sat! i need rest and enjoy!

life so fragile

and so i was tired and busy last week..attend hubby's uncle funeral daily..late night sleep, early morning awake.

i thought i will not cry, cos not that close..but on the 2nd last night, when i heard the prayers, i felt so sad..and remembered that he was so well during my wedding. On the last night prayer, i cried again. And on the last day, when i heard the band playing those sad songs, plus MIL crying and saying those sad words, wah lao, i can't stopped..

when he was been cremated, MIL fainted..somehow i did not really cry on that part cos it was not as terrifying like the last time, where it is manual pushed into the flames (like how my grandfather was).

I asked hubby did he cry and he said he did when uncle was pushed in.

he's 78yrs old and was suffering. you know how skinny he was? like an african refugee, starving for days. he can't swallow solid food or even liquid, everything was thru the pipe to the nose.
Maybe it's relief to him. And his sons were crying, big man crying, so u know why i can't stop crying and why MIL faint.

I must treasure life more, treasure family more. Not till i lost them, then i cry and regret.

But friends? Maybe some, those who appreciate me. Like i said, I have been calling her but she chose not to answer so what can i do right?

不知烦还是不烦好？

decide to blog in chinese

近来，我和老公都为了这件事而烦，还经常吵架。也许是老公这两个星期都没出国工干，所以见面的数次多，仳次对对方的不满更容易地显露出来。

至于发生了什么事，我就不说了。希望过了昨晚的讨论，一切能解决。接下来，能风平浪静的过日子。

今天，在上班的途中，老公打电话给我，告诉我一个坏消息。家翁的哥哥去世了。在那一刻，我不知为和想起了外公。他们俩都中风而去世。我相信他的两个儿子和老婆一定非常的难过。
我家翁和家婆也难过。因为他们的感情非常密切。

今晚，我们得去。接下来的几晚，我们也得去。

我已经几晚都迟睡了，老公也是。

so tough to type in chinese, but no choice have to try..next time, when i get into intermediate for Jap, i might try blogging in Japanese.