dear is flying again

dunno why..i just felt like it's dear 1st time flying off again..this morning, couldn't stop my tears from flowing..

last night, dear was telling me his ex colleague is getting divorce..but he didn't ask her why..then i was like..dear..i'm so worried, so many of our friends are getting divorced..it's not that I have no confidence in him. But as I heard our friends' reasons for divorcing, it's got nothing to do with love nor affairs..but MONEY $$..

in a marriage, both must not JI JIAO about $$..not necessary who earns more has the GREATER POWER to talk..this is something that i kept remindin myself..never ever quarrel with dear over $$. Last sunday, we quarrelled cos I mentioned about not gng to HONEYMOON, i don't wanna waste my savings..esp i want a kid next yr..

having a kid involve lots of $$ and I don't wish in future i have problems in buying diapers or milk powder or even if my kid is hosptialized(touch wood) and i have no $$ to admit him into hospital etc..

STRESS! i know all these are pessimistic and there is long way ahead for me to think that far..but i just couldn't stop thinking. That's the problem with ladies..we always think far ahead..

no matter what, if the family and love bond is strong, we can always walk over it..that's what dear is always saying. that's also what i love about him..he said he is poor, he will provide rice and milk for me and kid. And when i asked what about you..he replied: I will eat bread, not even instand noodles cos bread is cheap..See what I meant?